Here's my sad, depressing poems in the order I wrote them:
-Darkness of Souls -Emptyness -Broken Heart
-Into the Darkness -Into the Night
-Serpent Heart
-Lonely End
-Day by Day (11/08/02)
-Fight (11/08/02)
-Elemental (1-17-03)
Darkness of Souls
The sweetness of my heart The deepness of my soul Is now just no more Only a black hole The darkness
is seeping Down to the core Leaving me heart Feeling cold and sore And this all because Of
a single other soul Who I loved so dearly much But now nothing but that hole Whatever we once had Is
now gone for good And now there's the Darkness Which serves as my hood The Darkness now my soul The
cold now my heart Is now who I am So now we shall depart
Emptyness
The emptyness of my heart The emptyness of my soul My life feels so empty Just an empty black hole My
life cannot go on Without you always there The emptyness grows inside me When I feel that you don't care
It engulfs me in it's balckness It drowns me in it's sorrow It makes me wonder every night Will there
be a tomorrow? My life is now just emptyness My heart is now just pain It tears my soul into pieces
Making me go insane How long do I have to feel like this? Empty and alone inside Will I ever feel
loved again? Or forever should I hide? Hiding from the sorrow Hiding from the pain Hiding from the
emptyness Just to keep me sane
Broken Heart
Why do I go through this sorrow? Why must I feel this pain? For once I felt I was happy Instead of going insane
My feelings are all a jumble My stomach is churning around I feel like I'm just falling Tumbling
to the ground I try to look happy I hold back all the tears But I always let them loose When nobody
is near This sorrow, this pain Why must it be so? Why can't we be together? Why must I be alone?...
Into the Darkness
There is a fire burning deep within my heart It's raging...flaming... tearing everything apart Then
the fire is extinguished By the emptyness inside Always pulling me apart So I run away and hide This
loneliness grows In the depths of my soul Letting my darkness Create a black hole My feelings get
sucked in My happiness is no more Whatever layed in my heart Has diapperared forevermore Twirling,
spinning My feelings down a black well Tumbling, falling To the very pits of hell Who will take
me out of This pit I've created myself? Who will be able to bring me All the way back to health? Back
again to see the light Back from the fires of hell Back before I destroyed myself Back before I fell
Into the Night
My only light has left me Now only darkness remains I thought I would be happy I thought I could be sane
My sanity, very slowly, Disappears out of sight Then the darkness surrounds me, My blanket
made of night Darkness, darkness, everywhere And not a light to see And I sit here all alone as
The darkness seeps into me Seeps into the very depths Of my body, heart, and soul Seeping, seeping,
deeper still Creating an empty hole Empty feelings attmpt to fill The hole that was my heart It
makes me feel empty inside As it tears me all apart It pushes me away from family And friends I found
so dear The voices start to flood my mind Drowning out all I hear All the pain and suffering Has
left me cold and sore The night has now engulfed me Now I am no more
Serpent Heart
My soul has been eaten away
And clogged up like a gutter
To the point where confusion be
The one thing my mind utters
Torn away by the passing of time
Heart and soul alike
Stabbed and stabbed repeatadly
Never stopping the strike
Over and over, in and again
Like a stake through the vampire's heart
Tearing through his immortal chest
Straight to the tender part
Insanity overwhelms one
Smothered in their own kindness
It buries the serpent deeper
Till it thrusts out at the kindless
It stabs at one's existence
Filling it with venom
Until their blood runs cold
And slowy eats away them
The serpent growns weary of this foolish game
It wishes to end it now
Take thee sword from thy sheath
And stab it into my brow
Thrus till it goes no deeper
Push till no metal is seen
Put me out of my misery
Kill the serpent in me
Lonely End
Lonely from the sorrow
Lonely from the pain
Lonely from the loneliness
Takign what is sane
Lonely from the bleeding
Lonely from the snare
Lonely from the stabbing
Through my chest held bare
Lonely from the nothingness
Lonely from the dark
Lonely from the emptiness
Emptying out my heart
Lonely, lonely, forever lonely
Only which is my life
Now my existence ends forever
with the sharp blade of this knife
Day by Day
Day after day
Night after night
My thoughts always turn to black, from white
Thought after thought
Dream after dream
Every moment being ripped at the seams
String by string
Bead by bead
Falling away from my own self-esteem
Drip by drip
Drop by drop
Never finding a way to make it all stop
Step by step
Day by day
Please just make it all go away
Fight
My life which is not mine
Darkness to the ends of time
Swimming through the blackest night
Always losing the gruesome fight
Slipping, falling away from it all
Becoming deaf to the lonely call
The call of what's good in all of the pain
The call of everything happy and sane
Evil consumes all I have
Killing it like a lame, sick calf
Suffocating it like a jealous lover
Putting it into the ground to cover
Listen to the story my life tells
A journey through the depths of hell
Lonely, sadness, sorrow, and pity
Tall sky scrapers in my life, my city
All of my tears, into this paper, they go
Which can't be wiped away with one one blow
Maybe in time things will be right
But as of today, I've lost my own fight
Elemental
Strength is my burden
Imperfection, my enemy
Fire embodies the essence of me
Arrows many I've taken for thee
Life ismy torture
Time whithers it away
Confound in the crypt
Here, am I, to stay?
Lost in this damnation of a maze
Trapped as a lighting bug in June
Stabbing towards what I can't find
Wishing the ending was soon
Searching for my water
to wash away the blood
Searching for my soul
covered in Deaths's hood
The love sits in frong of me
But any of it, I have none.
It keeps it's distance away from me
like the clouds can't reach the sun.
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